My
poems reflect the reality of women in South Africa, this is a collection of black
women’s voices, voices that are silenced and those who are lost along the path
of recovery, they talk of the pain and struggles that black women are faced
with every day. The pain of patriarchy, abuse and struggle. One of the poems
speaks of the injustices of the story tellers and books on their denial of
acknowledging women who have played a vital role in the struggle movement. 
These
poems are heart breaking and yet eye opening to those who dare to read them and
allow themselves to be immersed in these women’s stories and voices.
My Crown 
The
world never loved us 
They
look at us as though we are foreign in our own home 
Being
black and a woman has us crying when will it be over
They
look at us once again as though we don’t belong 
If
not in this land, where?
God
said a women’s hair is her crown
But
he never specified which woman he was talking about 
They
looked at our hair and they laughed and said it needs to be fixed 
They
made us want their hair 
Their
hair was more suited for the crown 
Oh,
how we wished we were born with that hair
They
made it easy, Science made it easy
Chemicals
would turn our hair into that crown, like theirs
Never
mind the damage it would cause to our natural hair
It
would make them see the crown on our heads
Maybe
we would be as beautiful as them 
God
needs to be clearer, so we don’t get our hopes up
The
crown we have, is that of thorns
No
one wants to touch it 
Even
black men spend money to buy the perfect crown for their women
Maybe
it is me, but this crown on my head seems to not reflect the crown they show us
everyday
I
am black, and my crown is not the one I want on my head 
It
is a heavy burden that needs to cut off
Maybe
without it I can get a better job and more respect 
Maybe
I can own my body and more 
Mistaken identity 
They
all point and laugh 
I
look at the fingers point at me 
Like
a weapon ready to shoot 
There
she is 
Catch
her 
She
will run 
Who
are they talking about 
They
repeat 
There
she is 
Catch
her
She
will run
They
come 
I
stand 
They
hold me down 
I
ask, why?
Why
do you arrest me?
You
are wanted for theft 
I
don’t steal sir, i said
They
say we know a thief when we see one 
I
say no sir, it is not me 
They
show me a picture 
of
a woman who is darker than me 
With
glasses on 
I
say sir she looks nothing like me 
He
says you all look the same 
For my son
The
sun on my head 
My
son on my back 
This
is my life 
I
work from eight to five 
I
sit three times a day to feed my son
He
is only one month old 
I
don’t have a choice 
The
farm is big, and I get 10 Rand an hour 
How
else will i feed him 
The
boss will be back soon and ask why I am sitting
They
don’t care if you just gave birth 
They
want the job done
His
father lives with his wife
And
he left me 
I
did not know he was married 
When
I found out it was too late 
What
can i do
He
is here now 
I
must continue and toil the land 
Maybe
one day he can own his own land 
And
have a woman like me work for him
The Zulu man 
Stop,
stop I said 
I
love you, those were his words 
I
love you and that is why I must do this
You
need to be disciplined 
My
wife must know my hand 
This
is love and you must understand 
You
married a Zulu man you hear
My
heart dropped, and I sang a song
While
he was beating me, I sang
It
will be over soon,  just don’t do anything to make him angry again 
Be
a good woman your mama brought you up to be 
Maybe
this time it won’t be the alcohol 
Maybe
tomorrow we will smile and laugh 
Just
be a good wife and bring him his food
Just
don’t make him angry 
Or
the kids will see him beat you again 
The monster I know
I
saw him hit her and it was everyday
He
hit me one day
That
was the day I saw her speak against him 
Not
my child she said 
You
can do what you want to me 
But
not my child 
That
day I lost her 
She
died on the way to hospital 
He
was never arrested he walks the streets of Alex 
The
streets are full of them 
They
look at you and call you 
They
want to touch you 
The
police work with them 
The
police are them 
I
saw him yesterday 
20
years later he still has not apologized 
I’ve
never spoken to him 
He
too does not speak to me 
He
has new family now
I
wonder if they know he is a monster 
He owns her
God
created him in his image 
He
lay down and a rib was taken from him 
And
she was created 
He
owns her, and her body is his 
He
wants his rib back and that’s why he owns her 
He
lay down and she was made from him 
He
owns her
Without
him there is no her 
For
without him 
There
would be no rib 
He
owns her 
Self
My
mouth became my gun 
My
words became my ammunition 
The
day I said I am beautiful 
The
day I said I am worthy 
Was
the day I saw my crown 
The
day I found my value 
That
was the day I knew how to walk away
They
said they want the land 
I
said I want my body 
They
said they want the economy 
I
said I want my freedom
They
said I am acting like a victim
I
said you made me the victim 
Black
man have you heard the voice of your mothers and sisters 
They
have been broken and bruised by you 
You
call for the land and economy to be released by your captors 
Yet when the black woman asks to be free from you 
You
call foul 
Day
after day we count the bodies 
Yet
you still call foul 
Black
man you have failed the black woman and child 

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